I am angry,
More angry than I've been before.
Does that scare You?
Will You get angry back?
Worse yet
Will You turn and walk away?
I am angry that You left me
Angry that I had to grieve alone
Angry that I don't know who You are
Angry that I loved You
And even more angry that I no longer do.
Where have You been
And why have You come back?
It's too late.
I am broken.
We are broken.
And I am only angry.
Maybe making peace
Begins by making war.
Yesterday I felt nothing.
Today I am angry.
Maybe tomorrow I will miss You.
This all sounds so familiar. You are not alone. Grieving can last a while, but there is an amazing peace that surrounds you when the reconciliation returns. Actually, during the anger and hurt, there is the continual little voice or nudge from God... I remember that, too.
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